Embracing Hygge Part II

While searching for my ideal routine, I took a run/walk mid-morning last week. It was around 11:00 a.m. and the day could only be described as beautifully grey. Near our home there is a lake with a one-mile loop, it has quickly become one of my favorite spots to run, walk or read.

That morning I saw a swan and automatically stopped to take a picture. It instantly made me think of the Swan Princess, of Derek and Odette. It surprised me that I remembered the names, I then remembered that growing up I was obsessed with the movie and with the princess turning into a swan. I told myself, I really like swans and took a couple more pictures.

My mind flooded with random thoughts about swans, the phrase if you are a bird, I am bird; Ryan Gosling (not as Noah, but as Seb) and the name Derek. I also told myself, that I really like the name Derek; but that Derek Araujo sounded off, so it was not a name option for any future child.

I am not rambling. I have an actual point.

A sudden and very powerful thought kicked the swan, birds and all the names out of my mind. With this new thought, came another name: Guilt. I started thinking about the fact that I was standing taking pictures of swans at 11:00 a.m. on a Thursday. I felt guilty. It was the first time in a month, that the words: “I should be working” came to mind. It pains me to admit it, I even felt ridiculous.

Thankfully, I came to my senses, rather quickly. This also surprised me. I started telling myself, almost out loud: “No, you will not do this to yourself. You are to feel grateful, nothing else.”

Yes, grateful that I was standing outside on this beautiful day at 11:00 a.m. on a Thursday watching swans. Grateful that I am living in this lovely city and that our apartment is close to a lake.

Grateful that well-being means running around 8:00 a.m., writing between 9:00 to 3:00 and taking an afternoon walk. Grateful that Wednesdays, are now my days to explore libraries and write outside.

Grateful that after 15 years, I can (really) experiment with my routine. Grateful that I had time to read 3 books in a week, grateful that I have a solid financial plan for the next year and grateful for the little poem that was already creeping in my mind about swans, bikes and grey skies. I promise, I did not meant for the last sentence to rhyme.

Grateful for a new story and its main character, Derek. Grateful for contentment and inspiration. Grateful to have the time to admire a swan.

And grateful for you, for reading me.

M.

5 thoughts on “Embracing Hygge Part II

  1. Another great post, thank you for taking us on this journey Marcela. I actually visualized the swan, birds and names scrambling! A good writer can take us down such amazing paths, we can almost see the words come to life. Keep walking, keep writing and never doubt this path you have chosen! Xx – R

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